tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-53337561339458518252024-03-14T02:48:57.541-07:00Yoga JourneysThe miracle is not to walk on thin air or water, but to walk on Earth.
-- Thich Nhat Hanhdragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.comBlogger68125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-10769419208619990172011-06-05T11:13:00.000-07:002011-06-05T11:17:33.706-07:00The rhythm of life<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table>Yesterday I taught my final exam class for yoga teacher training. I've been working on it pretty seriously for over a month, agonizing over the sequence of poses, tinkering constantly with the playlist (trying to get Nomad's <a href="http://youtu.be/DFgfyKDfAS8">Follow the Sun</a> to line up with my Reverse Warrior pose - it's the first song on the linked video "Turn your face to the sunshine/ and you won't see the shadows"), and practicing teaching the class to my mentor, classmates, and an empty room full of imaginary students. I've been using the room where I was scheduled to teach in order to become comfortable there and visualize my success. Little by little, I became confident and comfortable teaching my class. On Thursday, I was very happy with my teaching. I went into yesterday's workshop feeling ready to go, seeing myself as a yoga teacher.<br />
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I was the last of five students scheduled to teach yesterday. Just as the second class was winding down and we were moving into Savasana, loud music began blaring into our room from outside. After class, we looked outside and discovered that the car wash across the street had been converted into some kind of event stage for the <a href="http://artaroundadams.org/">Art Around Adams</a> festival. Large speakers were pointed directly towards the studio window. We decided to move to the main studio, a much larger and less intimate space but better insulated for sound.<br />
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Two more classes went by without incident, and it was my turn to teach. I set up my room, playing some mood-setting music on my iPod. Everyone was tired but ready to push through with class. Then, just as I was beginning to teach, loud drumming started right outside the studio. I was completely fazed. Sound easily affects my concentration, with calming music assisting me and drum beats extremely distracting. Nevertheless, I'd been preparing for this moment and I was ready to teach. I began my class, doing my best to focus and create a calming atmosphere. I walked around, breathing a loud <i>ujjayi </i>breath. I tried turning my music off, but then the drums seemed at odds with what I was doing. I tried turning it up, but there was no competing. I ended up settling for my music fairly softly and the drums beating over the top of it all.<br />
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In spite of all this, the class went really well. It's always challenging doing something new, and stressful to take any exam, but I was really happy with how things went. At some point, the drums stopped, so my quiet meditative music was the only sound for Savasana and I was able to go around and do some nice adjustments and spread the lovely scent of lavender around the room.<br />
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However, there was still one last lesson to be learned. It wasn't until a couple of people suggested that I could have simply turned my music off and taught the class to the beat of the drums that I realized I had totally missed the gift I had been sent. For me, the drums were a distraction and "ruining" the mood I had chosen to set for the class, but for the students doing the class, the drums were an invigorating force at the end of a long and tiring day. I had completely missed that potential energy. All that planning and visualization was helpful, but in the end, there I was repeating an old pattern: clinging stubbornly to <i>my</i> plans, my version of how things were "supposed to be" - and fighting against the inexorable rhythm of life.<br />
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This class - my last class as a trainee teacher and my first class as a professional - taught me something I never expected. As I taught my first class in the role of a teacher, I also found myself in the role of a student, repeating an important lesson about life. <i>I am not in control</i>. Life has its own rhythms, and sometimes dancing to your own drummer is not the way to go if your inner drummer is in conflict with the rhythms around you.<br />
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Ironically, this lesson was already encapsulated in my class and it was I, the teacher, who needed to hear it. The class theme was "gratitude", and I ended with a quote from Melody Beattie:<br />
"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend."<br />
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<b>Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity.</b><br />
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What I <i>had</i> was live drumming right outside the studio, and I had forgotten to be grateful! What I had was enough and more. My gratitude in those first few moments of class could have turned "denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity."<b> </b> Instead, I suffered through fear and frustration. Now, as I work to let go of the story of how things happened or how things could have happened, I am realizing that not clinging to the past does not mean we fail to grasp its lessons. I hope that I will be able to carry this lesson with me into my work as a yoga teacher.<br />
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I don't think it's a coincidence that this was exactly the lesson I needed to grow as a person, a yogi, a teacher. I am very grateful for those drummers now.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-26975472554816406832011-05-29T18:50:00.000-07:002011-05-29T18:50:23.022-07:00Change is constant<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table>I was waiting for a bus the other day after a teacher training workshop when a woman came out of a nearby tattoo parlor. As she walked by me, I caught a glimpse of her brand new tattoo: <b>change is constant</b>. This isn't a new concept to me - I've written about impermanence here before, for example (follow the tag on this post) - but for whatever reason, I received the message in a new way. It was as though there were a footnote on her tattoo that said: <i>and that means you, too</i>.<br />
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<b>Change is constant <i>and that means you, too</i></b>. Sometimes I have this crazy fear that I <i>can't</i> change, that I'll always be fighting the same battles and making the same mistakes, that I'll always be stuck in the same patterns of being. In fact, change is inevitable, and <i>that means me, too</i>. Everything changes. And that conviction that we're in some way an exception, that our identity is somehow permanent and unchanging? Well, what are the chances of that?<br />
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This is pretty liberating and empowering - because change may be imperceptibly slow sometimes, but it <i>is </i>constant. On a cellular level, we're changing all the time as new cells die and are replaced; we don't usually notice those changes happening, but they are. Perhaps in a similar way, elements of old mental/ emotional patterns die and are replaced regularly, and although we can't see the changes taking place most of the time, we aren't stuck: we have an incredible capacity for transformation. This is our birthright. It is constant and inevitable. It's important, therefore, to work for positive change - because change will happen regardless. Look within and make those changes count! Namaste.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-7701322342824022932011-04-18T14:21:00.000-07:002011-04-18T14:23:32.108-07:00The wisdom I once knewYoga teacher training is giving me lots that I want to write about - and no time to write in. I hope these posts that are rattling around in my head will eventually make it here. Some of the things I've been learning seem new; other ideas are realizations that I've been reaching towards for some time but have only just found within my grasp. Still other ideas seem like things I knew once but thought I had forgotten.<br />
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</tbody></table>We all learned to walk once. From our positions on the floor, we were driven to grasp nearby objects and pull ourselves upright. In that position, we had to use our muscles in new ways, figuring out how to stabilize joints and stack our bones. Even then, with some measure of stability, we weren't satisfied. We had to walk, and then run - learning to keep it all together and balance in a constantly shifting world. We moved too fast, leaned too far, and fell - often, and sometimes painfully. We howled when we hit our heads on the corners of tables and scraped our hands and knees - but the next opportunity, we pulled ourselves upright and ran headlong into the next disaster, fearless, until we learned to feel our own center of balance and remain steady on our feet.<br />
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</tbody></table>Now, many years later, most of us don't remember how we learned to walk. We're blissfully unaware of the painful headlong falls, and we have no conscious memory of how we learned to balance on our feet. When it comes to balancing upside down - on your head or hands or forearms - it may seem like something completely new. As I try to understand the limits of my balance in inversions, however, I'm realizing that I <i>have</i> done this all before. I've already been through this process of challenging the force of gravity, of learning to stack all the bones in my body on top of each other, of finding the point of lightness and effortless balance in a seemingly impossible vertical position. Somewhere, in those deep hidden places in the body where forgotten memories go, I know how to learn this.<br />
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Back then, those hurtling falls didn't faze me for long. Now, when I reach too far with my legs and come crashing to the ground, I'm left with a lingering fear that sends me back to basics, just trying to straighten my legs into the air again. Somewhere deep inside, I need to connect with the toddler me - that little girl who wanted so badly to walk around, who had such incredible confidence to try again, who had not yet learned to dwell on past failures. In my practice, I'm seeking the simplicity of being of a child. I'm striving to bring in a little innocence to balance my wisdom, to infuse beginner's mind into these poses. I want to do them with all the knowledge I've gained from my previous attempts, but also with the openness that comes with trying something for the first time.<br />
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Surely part of the practice is to walk, run, dance, balance on your head, and love as though you've never been hurt, never fallen down, never cracked your head against the corner of a table. To be fully present through the falling and the getting back up, and then to be fully present in the next attempt - as though falling last time had nothing to do with what will happen this time - because it doesn't, in fact, as hard as that is to believe. Maybe that's <i><b>all</b></i> of the practice in fact, all the work there really is to do. I'm starting to think that it will be enough.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-12792169571559787142011-03-22T09:29:00.000-07:002011-05-29T18:58:54.509-07:00OK, Rumi, let's dance.<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table><blockquote>We're fools whether we dance or not, so we might as well dance.<br />
~Japanese proverb<br />
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Let the beauty you love be what you do. There are a thousand ways to kneel and kiss the earth.<br />
~ Rumi</blockquote><br />
Nathan over at <i>Dangerous Harvests</i> just made <a href="http://dangerousharvests.blogspot.com/2011/03/dangerous-harvests-2nd-anniversary-post.html">his second anniversary post</a>. Happy blogiversary, Nathan! To celebrate, he posted his first post from the blog. It isn't <i>my</i> anniversary, but I thought I'd go back and look at my first post anyway. Here's a piece of it (from November 2, 2008):<br />
<blockquote>If yogis discovered the secret of happiness thousands of years ago, why do we now still live in a culture of so much suffering?! And to put it more personally, since this is to be my personal journey, why do I still suffer so much? Why do I forget to practice in my daily life, when I know that it will not only make me happier and healthier, but also decrease suffering in the lives of those around me?<br />
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In June, I started a Masters in International Education at the <a href="http://www.sit.edu/">SIT Graduate Institute</a> in Vermont. I chose the school because I believe the SIT philosophy is highly compatible with my attempts to increase the practice of yoga in my daily life. In formulating my learning plan, I stated as my second learning objective "Explore ways to bring my career into harmony with my yoga practice." In fact, this is one of the key reasons why I am doing this degree - to give myself the training and the tools to adjust my working life to facilitate my practice - and yes, cheesy cheesy, to do more good in the world.</blockquote><br />
It's interesting to look back on because I don't feel that way any more. It's not that I don't suffer, but that the quality of my suffering has changed. Back then, I was suffering in the dark. Now, I feel like I can at least suffer with the light on. I have a consistent daily practice, not only of yoga and meditation on the mat or cushion, but also taking these practices into my life and applying them to running, eating, working, and personal relationships. Through this, I've not only physically transformed but I've begun to shine the flashlight of mindfulness into all sorts of dark corners.<br />
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In the beginning, this blog was about bringing my career into alignment with my yoga practice. I had forgotten that. Back then, I was working a challenging administrative job and struggling to practice yoga in the workplace. I was reluctant to admit that I was struggling so much because it wasn't the right place for me to be. It was a job that worked with my strengths and which brought out all the worst in me, too. I suffered in many ways at that time: emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually. The suffering had to get really bad before I was really willing to look at the forces that were holding me there and ask myself:<i> Why? Why fight? Why not just let go?</i><br />
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I was clearly looking for the light switch, even then. I'd started my Masters program because I was already seeking. I wrote those things in my learning plan and started this blog for a good reason. I've even had a Rumi quote up on my computer sidebar, probably since before I started this blog: <i>Let the beauty you love be what you do.</i> It took me all this time to really see it, to look Rumi in the eyes and reply, <i>Yes. OK. I know why you are here. Let's dance.</i><br />
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When I started shining that flashlight around, mostly what I saw was fear. When I looked more closely, I realized that fear is always worse than the thing I fear. I know this is not a new concept, but the more I sit on my cushion in silence with my eyes closed, the more I have to make friends with it. I began to wonder if I ever had <i>any</i> other motivation for action in my life besides avoiding fear. I began to wonder what would happen if I did something for love. Would the world end? Would the boogieman in the corner come out and get me? Did it matter?<br />
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There's never any map for these journeys we take, or rather, I'd say there are many maps - the experiences of others who have taken their own journeys and lived to tell the tale - but they're cryptic and incomplete, and sometimes we flat out refuse to believe that they could really be telling us to leap off that cliff into the darkness. Over the past three years, I've been evolving. I feel like the same person, but when I look back to that first post, I know I am not. I'm teaching at Community College now, and it's scary and difficult and fulfilling. I just started Yoga Teacher Training this past weekend. I'm finally ready to take the necessary risks in order to make sure all the pieces of my life really fit. I've learned to feel gratitude for the fear and suffering, because I've realized that they <i>were</i> the map and directions. They <i>were</i> the flashlight. I'm ready, finally, to really love what I do.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-53439321206968175982011-03-05T11:15:00.000-08:002011-03-05T11:17:08.345-08:00Making choices in practice: limbs, branches, and paths<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-IJTuUrO_pzM/TXKBzDn5iwI/AAAAAAAAALo/lzD5q1WQgCQ/s1600/DSC01181.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-IJTuUrO_pzM/TXKBzDn5iwI/AAAAAAAAALo/lzD5q1WQgCQ/s320/DSC01181.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><br />
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Yoga texts and articles, ancient and modern, abound with metaphors for the choices we make in our practice. The <a href="http://www.expressionsofspirit.com/yoga/eight-limbs.htm">eight components</a> of Astanga Yoga are often referred to as the eight "limbs", while the <a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/basics/157">different approaches</a> we can take to practice are often called "branches" or "paths" of yoga. (Different sources list varying numbers of "branches" - raja, karma, bhakti, and jnana are usually included, and then many modern descriptions include hatha, tantra, kundalini, and various others). These metaphors obviously resonate with people because they have stuck around. The metaphor of the journey is one that I have always connected with personally, hence the name of this blog. My practice is not static, but evolving. It grows and changes, depending on my needs. The deeper I go, the more committed I am to practice, but also the more willing I am to take detours and walk different paths for a while.<br />
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I'm beginning a yoga teacher training program in less than two weeks, so I've been thinking a lot about my personal practice and what kind of a teacher I will be. It's definitely important to me to be flexible in my practice and to learn about different limbs/ branches/ paths/ [insert metaphor here] so that I will be aware of my choices when my needs change. It's also important to try different styles of yoga to find which you connect with most strongly. Any path can be a road in.<br />
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If yoga is a journey and there are many paths in the woods, I think these paths intersect in various places, so there's no need to pick just one. There have been times when reading and studying the philosophy of yoga has been how I've really been able to connect. Sometimes, I just want to do asana, and other times I want to meditate or chant or help others. I am grateful for all these choices because they allow me to remain engaged with my practice no matter what is going on in my life.<br />
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However, I also think it can be useful to explore the paths that seem a little darker and less inviting to you. You may decide not to stay on that path after all, or you may discover that it was something <i>within you</i> that was blocking your path and perhaps you were meant to walk it for a while after all. Sometimes it is exactly the practice that challenges us, the one we resist, that is the one we need the most. Sometimes, I think it's possible to use the concept of "different paths" to avoid exploring an aspect of practice that scares us or promises to be difficult.<br />
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After a long time practicing mostly off the mat, I am coming home to hatha yoga. I say coming home because, like many so-called Westerners (we really need to find a better term for that), hatha yoga is where I began. I must say it feels like home, and I'm happy to be practicing mostly hatha at the moment. That doesn't mean I'm sticking with one style of asana practice, though. Some days I do a lot of pranayama and meditation, and other days I just want to do a million vinyasas. I'm enjoying exploring different styles in my home practice and in the classes I attend. I think it makes me a better person, and I think it will make me a better teacher too.<br />
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On the other hand, I'm aware that this might just be a personal preference. Some people probably prefer to commit to a path and follow it deeper and deeper. There isn't any one "right" way to do it. Each yogi has to find - or make - his or her own road.<br />
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If you practice yoga, what has your path been? Have you focused on one or more limbs and not others? Have you picked a branch and gone way out, or are you swinging from branch to branch as you go along? Do you feel like you've found "your path"?dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-85168950786562889212011-02-22T10:39:00.000-08:002011-02-22T10:39:44.564-08:00Putting yourself first<table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table>I think in our culture, we often believe that putting ourselves first is selfish, egotistical, wrong. This in spite of a lot of big talk about "looking out for number one." (Talk which is usually problematic in other ways, but I don't want to go there right now.) We give so little respect and value to our own needs, our own lives. We put the needs of our loved ones before our own, and we put the needs of our jobs: the needs of our superiors, our subordinates, our peers and our clients before our own. Maybe we realize that this is not working, and we try to put aside a portion of each day for self-care, or we try to assert our right to say no.<br />
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I've been thinking about this a lot because I've been on a journey, the last two years, of learning to say <i>yes</i> to myself. Like so many things, it's a little easier said than done. The <i>how</i> and <i>when</i> to put your own needs first is difficult. It's not that you want to ignore the needs of others. It's just that you need to be <i>well</i> and <i>balanced</i> yourself in order to truly give and support the others around you. Too few of us in this culture are well and balanced these days, in my opinion. I know this because when I meet someone who is, that person stands out.<br />
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I wanted to pass on a teaching from one of my teachers, <a href="http://ginsengsandiego.com/susanmarcus.php">Susan Marcus</a>. (Susan has so much wisdom to share, and I'm excited to see her own studio, <a href="http://www.studiopeace.org/Studio_Peace/Welcome.html">Studio Peace,</a> coming into being. Check it out.) Last week in class, it seemed like everyone was hurting in one way or another. Susan took the opportunity to talk about how injury reminds us that we need to respect and care for our bodies. Then she said, "I often think that if everyone took care of themselves the way women do when they're pregnant, how much healthier we'd all be. Just think about what would happen if we all took as much responsibility for our own lives in our bodies as we do when we have another life within us."<br />
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I'm at the age where a large percentage of my friends are either pregnant or have just had a baby, so I've seen it happen. Women get pregnant, and they stop drinking so much coffee. They stop drinking alcohol and/or smoking. They start eating their fruits and vegetables, they take their supplements, and they start drinking enough water. They work less overtime and they're dedicated to making time for their yoga class.<br />
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Why are we willing to make profound life changes to protect the life of our child, but we are not willing to make the same changes to protect the body - the one and only body - we were given in this life? Why are we not willing to make those same changes for ourselves, when they improve our happiness and our sense of well-being? I'm saying "we" here because I'm just as guilty as the next person. <i>Stop drinking coffee?</i><br />
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So I've been playing with this idea a little bit. There's this spark of divinity in this body. This body is all it has. How can I care for it? It makes it a little easier not to make excuses, a little easier to step onto my mat every day and eat my veggies and drink water and meditate. <i>The life within me. The light within me. Ahimsa applies to me, too.</i>dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-76017068290359898072011-02-12T13:34:00.000-08:002011-02-12T13:34:20.220-08:00Reflections of our true nature<table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table><blockquote>"While we practice conscious breathing, our thinking will slow down, and we can give ourselves a real rest. Most of the time, we think too much, and mindful breathing helps us to be calm, relaxed and peaceful. It helps us stop thinking so much and stop being possessed by sorrows of the past and worries about the future. It enables us to be in touch with life, which is wonderful in the present moment."<br />
- <span class="author">"Peace is Every Step" by Thich Nhat Hanh</span></blockquote><br />
As I mentioned in <a href="http://yogajourneys.blogspot.com/2011/01/commit.html">a post</a> last month, I've been following Tricycle Magazine's <a href="http://www.tricycle.com/meditate">Commit to Sit</a> challenge for the past 27 days. As it draws to a close, I've been reflecting on the experience. I did my full-day meditation challenge yesterday and am finishing the experience with two days of the regular Week 4 program. The full day of meditation was... well, <i>challenging</i> for me. I've never meditated for longer than an hour at a time before. The experience ranged from pain, frustration and self-hatred to bliss, gratitude and insight. Towards the end of the second two-hour block, I rose to do walking meditation and I felt like I was gliding through each step in pure awareness.<br />
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In that moment, I had a new understanding of the ethical components of yogic and Buddhist practice. During the Commit to Sit program, I committed to the <a href="http://www.tricycle.com/special-section/commit-sit-five-precepts">Five Precepts</a> as best I could. These practices were familiar to me as they share a lot in common with the five <i>yamas</i> of yoga. I've always struggled to follow the <i>yamas</i>, feeling some of them were almost unattainable. The <i>yamas</i> are often translated as "<a href="http://yoga.iloveindia.com/limbs-of-yoga/yama.html">restraints</a>" or "abstinences" or even <a href="http://www.suite101.com/content/yamas-quotthou-shalt-notquot-of-yoga-a31694">commandments or "thou shalt nots"</a> (ugh!). I recently encountered an alternate translation in <a href="http://www.abundantwellbeing.com/abw/pages/nischalaBio.jsp">Nischala Joy Devi</a>'s <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Secret-Power-Yoga-Womans-Spirit/dp/0307339696"><i>The Secret Power of Yoga</i></a> book, which is subtitled <i>A woman's guide to the heart and spirit of the Yoga Sutras</i>. Whether or not you agree that a heart-centered perspective is a purely feminine construct, it is interesting to read this refreshing and positive take on Patanjali's Yoga Sutras text.<br />
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Many traditional translations of this part of the sutras (II29-39) think about the <i>yamas</i> as restrictions to our behavior towards others (<i>ahimsa</i> = non-violence or non-harming; <i>satya</i> = truthfulness; <i>asteya = </i>non-stealing; <i>brahmacharya</i> = well, we can't agree on a translation for this one because we're afraid it might mean no sex! but commonly continence, sense-control, celibacy, or the like; <i>aparigraha</i> = non-hoarding, non-stealing, non-greed). Nischala Devi has a different take (p.p. 168-169):<br />
<blockquote>"Often, to simplify the enormous breadth and depth of the <i>Yamas</i> and <i>Niyamas</i>, they are called the "Do's and Don'ts of Yoga" [sic] or sometimes the "Ten Commandments of Yoga." This is taking a highly refined and virtuous way of living expressed throughout the millennia and reducing it to a finger-shaking image... When observed on a subtler level, the <i>Yamas</i> and <i>Niyamas</i> seem to be more of a tribute to being, affirming our already Divine nature..."<br />
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"Knowing the importance of repeating a statement in the affirmative, I have chosen to translate (as much as I possibly could) using positive, life-affirming language... When words or phrases evoke fear, punishment, or denial of pleasure, they encroach on our spiritual practices and diminish rather than enhance the glory of our true nature."</blockquote> Her translation of the <i>yamas</i> (reflections of our true nature) is:<br />
<ol><li> <i>Ahimsa</i>: reverence, love, compassion for all</li>
<li><i>Satya</i>: truthfulness, integrity</li>
<li><i>Astheya</i>: generosity, honesty</li>
<li><i>Brahmacharya</i>: balance and moderation of the vital life force</li>
<li><i>Aparigraha</i>: awareness of abundance, fulfillment.</li>
</ol>Doesn't that <i>feel</i> different?<br />
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Anyway, whatever translation you use, it seems clear enough that it's desirable to achieve compassion and reverence for all life, integrity, generosity, and a sense of fulfillment. But then you're going about your day and you yell at the driver in front of you, and then you gossip about someone at work, and then you decide not to share part of your lunch with a coworker who doesn't have any because you want it all for yourself.<br />
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So, how in the world do you <i>achieve</i> this stuff? What occurred to me yesterday in meditation is maybe you just <b>slow down</b>. We go through our lives so fast, we can barely see them happening to us, just like we walk so fast, we can't feel how our body is moving through the steps. Maybe you just slow down enough that you can <b>see</b> and <b>feel</b> what is happening. In that walking meditation yesterday, I felt that, at my core, I was calm and peaceful. Each step was smooth and steady and careful. From that place, I think the <i>yamas</i> would arise naturally and with ease. "Reflections of our true nature."<br />
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I know that this isn't a new concept, but <i>experiencing</i> it the way I did was new to me. Of course, slowing down that much is easier said than done. But it's a start. It's a piece of the puzzle, something concrete to move towards. It sounds easier than <i>just love everyone and everything</i>. I'll give it a try.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-16915872438637767532011-02-10T12:28:00.000-08:002011-02-10T12:28:40.092-08:00Chain reaction: Continuing to focus back<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table>I have a confession to make. For the first time in my life, I've had terrible back pain since some time last month. As a yogi, I couldn't help thinking <i>This shouldn't be happening to me.</i> I kept hoping it would just stop, but it didn't. In fact, as you might have guessed, it got worse until it was really affecting my quality of life and severely impeding my ability to sit in meditation. I couldn't figure out what was triggering it. I'd been traveling a lot during December and the first part of January, and the pain started some time after I returned home. I feared it was my return to running after taking some time off, or maybe it was my bed? I did more yoga, hoping I could work out the kinks, but my back continued to get worse. I deepened my inquiry into the back body. And then, I wrote my last blog post.<br />
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After reading my post, Kit Spahr, who blogs at <a href="http://kitspahr.blogspot.com/">Sometimes It's Art</a>, wrote to tell me she's been engaged in a similar exploration of the back body. She turned me on to <a href="http://www.katysays.com/2010/11/12/rua-rib-thruster/">this post</a> by Katy Bowman. I tried the suggested exercise and discovered, of course, that I'm a rib thruster. Katy provides some useful tips for correcting this alignment problem, and I started to consider these.<br />
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Then I started catching up on my Yoga Journals that had come around the holidays when I'd been too busy to read them. In the December 2010 magazine, the Anatomy column is by Roger Cole and is called "Easy Seat" (unfortunately not available online, but if you have the magazine, it starts on pg. 75). Cole talks about contracting the lower erector spinae muscles to correct misalignment and eliminate back pain in <a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/486">Baddha Konasana</a> (Bound Angle Pose). When I read it, I had a sudden realization. Far from keeping my back healthy, my yoga was <i>causing</i> my back pain - and it had been exacerbated to its current level by poor alignment in seated meditation during my Commit to Sit program.<br />
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The next time I sat, I was able to follow the whole chain reaction in my spine. My hamstrings are tight from running, so it's hard for me to achieve the correct pelvic position in a crosslegged seated position (the top of my pelvis is tilted back). I've been adjusting for this by sitting up on blankets or a meditation cushion, which allows me me to tilt my pelvic into a neutral position, but it takes effort to hold it there so as I focus on relaxation or on the breath, I tend to slip and round the lower back again.<br />
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Very often in yoga class, an instruction is given in a crosslegged seated pose to "roll the shoulders up, back, and down." When I was less flexible in the upper body, this had the intended result of opening my chest and relaxing the shoulders down, but as my chest, back and shoulders became more flexible and my shoulder blades became more mobile, I began performing this action by thrusting my thoracic spine far forward and pushing the shoulder blades deep into the back.<br />
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Another common instruction is to "lift the chest/ sternum" (I mentioned this in my last post), which I achieved by thrusting my ribs forward. Add this to my sometimes rounded lumbar spine, and I've been putting a huge amount of stress on my thoracic spine to curve in ways it was never meant to. (Cole's article is really excellent and has a helpful way to explore the curves of the spine and the use of the erector spinae muscles using cat/ cow which I highly recommend.)<br />
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One way I can tell when I'm doing this is that belly breathing is difficult, even painful. For years, I've been having occasional difficulty with the three-part yogic breath; I now realize it is often hard when sitting but always easy when lying on my back. I'm not sure of the anatomical explanation for this, but sitting the way I have been (slightly rounding my lumbar spine and pushing the thoracic spine forward to compensate while thrusting the lower ribs out), breathing into the belly is painful. When I contract the muscles along the lumbar spine and pull my lower ribs back while focusing on flattening my shoulder blades onto the back instead of thrusting them into the back, I can suddenly breathe into the belly with ease.<br />
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Another instruction I've misunderstood is one often given in seated forward bends: lead with your chest. The idea of this instruction is to have students bend at the hips instead of rounding the spine to get further down. However, because I don't have the mobility in my pelvis but I <i>do</i> have a lot of flexibility in my upper back, I realize that I've been backbending in my forward bends, thrusting the chest way out and the ribs way forward. Focusing on keeping the lower ribs in as Cole describes in his article allows me to work on bending forward from the pelvis instead of pushing the chest forward.<br />
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I guess part of the problem is that instructions that were appropriate for me as an asana beginner became harmful to me as I developed more flexibility in my upper body while remaining relatively tight in my lower body. I had a complete misunderstanding of how good spinal alignment should feel in my body and had no idea that I was having any of these problems until my back started hurting. Now that I've recognized the problem, I can begin working to correct it but my muscles need to get used to working in these new ways and I get tired easily. My back is improving - but slowly. In the meantime, seated meditation is painful - unless I sit in <a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/490">Virasana</a>, elevated on a block or cushion to protect my knees, in which case I can easily achieve the appropriate alignment of my pelvis (and therefore my back) and alleviate pain. <br />
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If you're a yoga teacher, do you give these types of instructions to your students? It might be useful to find out if any of them are having midback pain or struggling with belly breathing, and to explore whether this is a cause. Perhaps meditators with midback pain could benefit from the suggestion to try (modified) Virasana for meditation, as well as working on flexibility in the hamstrings and working with the alignment of the pelvis and thoracic spine. If anyone out there is having similar problems, I hope this helps you with your own exploration.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-10846986797465134002011-02-05T16:17:00.000-08:002011-02-05T16:22:23.440-08:00Everything has another side<div style="text-align: left;"><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left; margin-right: 1em; text-align: left;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table><blockquote><q>In truth, it matters less what we do in practice than how we do it and why we do it. The same posture, the same sequence, the same meditation with a different intention takes on an entirely new meaning and will have entirely different outcomes</q> </blockquote></div><blockquote><div style="text-align: left;">~ Donna Farhi</div></blockquote><div style="text-align: left;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/TU3XeDs2taI/AAAAAAAAAK8/CfvOG2_wnqA/s1600/DSC00693.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; margin-bottom: 1em;"></a></div><br />
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In October, I took a workshop at the <a href="http://www.lulubandhas.com/yoga/crib">Ojai Yoga Crib</a> with <a href="http://www.dragonflyyoga.com/studies/laura_tyree.php">Laura Tyree</a>. First of all, if you can get to the Crib, go. It has changed my life and continues to do so every year that I attend. (I think it's been six years now.) For that matter, if you get a chance to practice with Laura, do. Her wisdom and compassion (not to mention her beautiful voice!) will take you somewhere deep inside yourself - and wherever that place is, it is where you need to be.<br />
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In the workshop I took last October, Laura talked about how issues with her heart led her to explore her downward facing dog and consider how achieving a backbend in that pose was putting pressure on the heart. In many of the popular hatha yoga styles here, we do a lot of downward dogs, so this is a much repeated problem for many practitioners. As we get more flexible, this causes us to sway our backs in the pose, creating this backbend. She showed us how she was exploring a lift through the back between the shoulder blades. We practiced with a partner, having the partner place her hand on our backs so we could feel where the lift was happening.<br />
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When my partner put her hand on my back, I knew that I would always be able to find the right place to lift because it was in the exact location where I've had chronic back pain for years - upper mid-back, right between the shoulder blades. In that moment, I realized I had better pay more attention to my down dogs. Over the past few months, that realization has broadened into another: I had forgotten about my back entirely!<br />
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I love bhakti yoga and huge back bends and opening my heart to the sky with absolute abandon. However, I have very tight hamstrings from years of running and I do not love forward bends quite so much. I'm not tortured by them as much as I used to be, but when I do them, I'm usually focused on what my front body is doing. (And probably trying to make the pain in my back body go away by ignoring it. In case you didn't know, this doesn't work.) Now, I am reminded that there are at least two sides to every issue - even me!<br />
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I've started focusing on my back body all the time, not just in downward facing dog. I've been doing chakra meditation on the back body instead of the front. (So often teachers neglect to describe the chakra locations in terms of the back body, so I suspect I'm not the only one who has this problem.) I've discovered that pain relief often comes from directing my breath there. I've discovered that I can breathe into my kidneys as well as my belly, and into the space between my shoulder blades as well as my chest. I've discovered that this adds support, both in seated meditation and <i>asana</i>, and sometimes results in shifts in postures that feel really good and even relieve pain. I'm starting to feel how my lumbar spine (lower back) is overextending to compensate for the way I'm drawing my thoracic spine inward to get that exalted open-hearted feeling. Opening my heart center forward is killing my back - who knew?<br />
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Yesterday, I was looking for something entirely different in <a href="http://www.judithlasater.com/">Judith Lasater</a>'s <i>Yoga Body</i> book, and I came across the following passage:<br />
<blockquote>"One of the unfortunate actions that sometimes happens in asana practice is an over-flattening of the natural kyphosis [normal curvature of the spine]. Students are sometimes taught to lift the sternum with the intention of opening the chest, and they do so by bringing their thoracic spine into the body, thus flattening the curve. After years of practice, the spine loses some of its natural curve."</blockquote>Bingo - that's me. The book suggests standing on a yoga mat near a doorway and holding onto the doorway with your arms at chest level and hands crossed at the wrist. Then you walk backward slowly and round the thoracic spine upward while moving the shoulder blades apart and dropping your head between your arms, allowing some of the muscle tension in this area to be stretched and loosened. I will certainly be trying this in the future, and paying a lot more attention to how I support backbends with the breath from the back side of the body - not to mention focusing on how I may be collapsing here in forward bends and all sorts of other issues I've never considered before.<br />
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If I wanted to get philosophical here, I could explore the idea that the back represents my past, or talk about the side of anything that lies in shadow... but for once, I want to stay <i>on</i> the mat with this one. When I'm on the mat, I'm on the mat - both the front and the back sides of me. The more I practice <i>asana</i>, the more I realize there's always something I've forgotten to be present with in the pose; there's always a part of the body I've given preference to and another that's been lost from my conscious awareness. But the body has its own intelligence and if we know how to listen, it will let us know what has been forgotten. One thing is for sure: in the future, I'll be thinking a lot more about what those chronic achy bits are trying to tell me.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-56206295907149809982011-01-28T09:31:00.000-08:002011-01-28T09:35:04.725-08:00The best time to practice is right now<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/TUL2Unlc5sI/AAAAAAAAAK0/u7GqfXZ1CMY/s1600/DSC_0050.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="214" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/TUL2Unlc5sI/AAAAAAAAAK0/u7GqfXZ1CMY/s320/DSC_0050.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><blockquote>Yoga is the perfect opportunity to be curious about who you are. ~ Jason Crandell</blockquote><br />
<blockquote>For those wounded by civilization, yoga is the most healing salve. ~ Terri Guillemets</blockquote><br />
The deeper I go into practice, the more I become aware of how <i>complicated</i> I make life sometimes. There are all these layers of the mind that peel away. It reminds me of the way the experience of the <i>asanas</i> changes on a physical level. For the first few dozen or even hundred downward facing dogs, the experience is pretty much holding your breath and looking forward to coming down. And then suddenly, one day you actually <i>feel</i> what it means to inwardly rotate the thighs and spread the hip bones and all this <i>space</i> opens up in the pose. And it <i>will</i> change your world, that feeling. See if it doesn't.<br />
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Like this, too, in the mind. At first, learning to breathe through and experience difficult emotions without acting, I thought I <i>was</i> learning to deal with the present. (Side note: when I say that it sounds as if I have already learned to breathe through and experience difficult emotions without acting. I can assure you, I haven't. That's why they call it "practice.") Anyhow, I'm starting to realize that a strong emotional reaction is almost <i>never</i> about the present. It's a sure sign that I'm holding a past wound up as evidence in a present situation - probably holding it against someone who had nothing to do with the original pain in the first place. Take a close look and see if this isn't true. And it <i>will</i> change your world, that understanding.<br />
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I started this post out thinking that I was going to write about breathing through reactions in the present and then <i>boom</i>! Insight. Look out - you never know when it's coming. Originally, I was going to explore my reaction to a harassing comment left here, but now I see I don't have to. That comment, in the present, means nothing. Who knows why people do these things? His problem is not my problem. The pain and uncertainty and anger it triggered - that's old stuff, really old stuff. And the illusion of ego. Right now, in the present, there's just clarity and a sense of compassion.<br />
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The content of this post may have evolved, but I can keep the title because the time <i>is</i> now. Peel away all those layers of history, and inside is the jewel. It is all these illusions that are complicated. The present is incredibly simple. I wonder what is behind the next layer?dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-40792880195210407842011-01-27T08:22:00.000-08:002011-01-27T10:01:12.751-08:00Protect the state of no-intent<div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/TUGdm3kgNCI/AAAAAAAAAKs/MnIRvFGYhvo/s1600/5358808933_c65f0e02ea.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 239px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/TUGdm3kgNCI/AAAAAAAAAKs/MnIRvFGYhvo/s320/5358808933_c65f0e02ea.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5566903905484289058" border="0" /></a><span style="font-size:78%;">Photo credit: mollyollyoxenfree</span>/<span style="font-size:78%;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/mollydon/5358808933/">Flickr Creative Commons</a><br /></span></div><br />Yesterday I came across an article called "<a href="http://the99percent.com/articles/6947/what-happened-to-downtime-the-extinction-of-deep-thinking-sacred-space?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+DailyGoodNews+%28Ode+Magazine+-+And+now+for+the+good+news%29">What Happened to Downtime? The Extinction of Deep Thinking and Sacred Space</a>". The author, Scott Belsky, writes about how we are losing our moments of isolation and distraction-free thought. We are forgetting how to unplug and connect in with something else: ourselves, our thoughts, our intuition, and our dreams. It's an excellent article and I'll let it speak for itself. What's interesting to me is that Patanjali saw this coming.<br /><br />There's no arguing with the fact that the phenomenon Belsky addresses in his article is visible all around us. It's interesting that the very word <span style="font-style: italic;">connected</span> has come to refer to being online - a state I would argue is actually in many cases <span style="font-style: italic;">disconnection</span> from what is, from the self and the Self. I, too, am concerned - even frightened - about the changes that are happening in our culture as we become more and more accustomed to being constantly plugged in, available, and awash in "information". 'm certainly not suggesting that we should all unplug everything and go live in an isolated mountain cave for the next ten years. I have already written <a href="http://yogajourneys.blogspot.com/2009/04/virtual-sangha.html">here</a> about some of the benefits I think can be found on the internet. The trick (as is so often true) is finding the balance.<br /><br />In his article, Belsky astutely notes that the instincts that lead us to seek "constant connection" have been part of human nature since the beginning. I can see how, in the dark jungle nights, the drive to find and connect with others was a matter of life and death. But now, does our attachment to constant positive feedback on our Facebook posts or having large numbers of blog followers really serve us? Does it serve our community? Does it make us happy? I think the answer to these questions is clearly no.<br /><br />The Apple i-Tunes site boasts "everything you need to be entertained", and yet like the cravings we had in the old days, this hunger for amusement and distraction never stops. Patanjali certainly did not have any Apple devices beginning with "i", but he did talk about the causes of suffering (the <span style="font-style: italic;">kleshas</span>, sometimes translated as <span style="font-style: italic;">afflictions</span> or <span style="font-style: italic;">obstacles</span>) in the Yoga Sutras. In Chip Hartranft's translation (which I found in Stephen Cope's <span style="font-style: italic;">The Wisdom of Yoga</span>), they are "not seeing things as they are, the sense of 'I,' attachment, aversion, and clinging to life." I plead guilty.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span>Really, it is a long chain reaction of the <span style="font-style: italic;">kleshas</span> that leads us to give up what Belsky calls "our sacred space." On the surface, this behavior looks most like attachment, <span style="font-style: italic;">raga</span> in Sanskrit, but I think if I had to pick just one <span style="font-style: italic;">klesha</span> that drives me towards a state of constant connection, it would be the flip side of the coin: <span style="font-style: italic;">dvesha</span>, aversion. Belsky saw this too: "Space is scary," he says. What myriad of fears are we fleeing from online? With this constant flow of information, what evils do we plan to avert? What demons do we seek domination over? In our online communities, are we still seeking to drive out our fear of what waits in the dark jungle?<br /><br />Bless Patanjali (or whoever wrote the Yoga Sutras). With great compassion, he did not just leave us with the knowledge of our afflictions, but with concrete tools to overcome them: the practice of yoga. "Suffering that has not yet arisen can be prevented," he tells us. "The preventable cause of all this suffering is the apparent indivisibility of pure awareness and what it regards... When the components of yoga are practiced, impurities dwindle; then the light of understanding can shine forth, illuminating the way to discriminative awareness."<br /><br />Although it's hard to find a definitive statistic, I think it's safe to say that millions of Americans are now taking up yoga. I don't think this is a coincidence. We instinctively know something is missing from our lives, even if we don't know what it is. Whether we know it or not, yoga is providing many of us with avenues to many of Belsky's suggestions for preserving sacred space. Even if you never chant "om" or read the sutras, even if you just go to class to sweat, the truth is that yoga classes everywhere are providing people with sacred space to unplug and perhaps turn off some of those persistent, nagging thoughts and worries, maybe even to become more self-aware... and if we're lucky, to fall into that increasingly elusive "state of no-intent". And perhaps this is one of the things that draws us, almost inexplicably sometimes, back to our mats again and again and again.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-63340616634837230062011-01-22T13:54:00.000-08:002011-02-12T13:34:50.805-08:00Commit<blockquote>"Each moment is a chance for us to make peace with the world, to make peace possible for the world, to make happiness possible for the world."<br />
~ Thich Nhat Hanh</blockquote><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58017582@N00/5283610091/" title="Wedding rings by kspsycho83, on Flickr"><img alt="Wedding rings" height="160" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5163/5283610091_0fa0fda350_m.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 78%;">Photo credit: Lisa Stout (kspsycho83 - Flickr Creative Commons)</span></div><br />
I've decided to greet 2011 by making a commitment I've been considering for a long time. (No, I'm not getting married! But I <span style="font-style: italic;">am</span> making a promise that may just change my life.) I'm undertaking Tricycle Magazine's 28-day meditation challenge known as "<a href="http://www.tricycle.com/meditate">Commit to Sit</a>." Starting January 17th, for 28 days I'm commiting to the Five Precepts and following Tricycle's meditation program.<br />
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There are a lot of paths on the journey of yoga. There are the <a href="http://yoga108.org/pages/show/7-four-margas-four-paths-of-yoga">four paths</a> (or six paths, or even more, depending on how you look at it), and there's the <a href="http://www.yogamovement.com/resources/patanjali.html">eight-fold path</a> of Patanjali (or the eight limbs of yoga, as they are sometimes called). There are many ways to practice, and different practices appeal to different people - but the more yoga I do, the more convinced I become that the meditation piece is key. At least, for my journey.<br />
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So I'm making a commitment. Given, it's kind of a baby commitment - just 28 days - but my commitment to practice is much deeper than that. I practice for life - and because one should never commit to <span style="font-style: italic;">anything</span> without careful thought, I've been considering what it means to "commit to sit". Princeton Universit<span id="hotword" name="hotword">y's <a href="http://wordnet.princeton.edu/">WordNet</a> links these ideas (among others) with the word <span style="font-style: italic;">commit:<br />
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<ul><li>give, dedicate, consecrate, devote (give entirely to a specific person, activity, or cause)</li>
<li>entrust, trust, confide (confer a trust upon)</li>
<li>invest (make an investment)</li>
<li>practice (engage in or perform)<br />
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</ul>When I commit to sit, I do all these things. I consistently and fully engage in the practice I've chosen. I make an investment - of my time, of my energy, of my Self. In doing so, I'm putting my trust in the practice - not only that I will benefit but that we will all benefit, that this practice can help bring peace and happiness to our world. I dedicate myself to it completely. I like the word <span style="font-style: italic;">devote</span> here because of its double meaning. Not only <span style="font-style: italic;">devote yourself to practice</span> but <span style="font-style: italic;">practice with devotion.</span><br />
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Devotion. Because in the end, it's all about love.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-50260507932037677512010-08-25T14:08:00.000-07:002010-08-25T14:54:55.901-07:00Being present on the journey, releasing the destination<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/THWH8yrZzyI/AAAAAAAAAJ8/kgcruvQClsE/s1600/DSC_0469.JPG"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/THWH8yrZzyI/AAAAAAAAAJ8/kgcruvQClsE/s320/DSC_0469.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5509459197623389986" border="0" /></a>Today it became obvious that someone has a problem with me. Now I think most people encounter difficult relationships (or difficult patches in good relationships) from time to time. My self-talk in these moments tends to oscillate between,<span style="font-style: italic;"> This is totally not my fault. There's nothing I can do. This person has her own issues</span>, and, <span style="font-style: italic;">I'm a horrible person. I've ruined another relationship. It's all my fault. If only I'd..., I could have prevented this.</span> Most of the time (and probably in this case), it's somewhere in between the two extremes. But also, placing blame is beside the point.<br /><br /><blockquote>"To practice is to use all that arises within us for the growth of understanding, compassion, and freedom."<br />~ Jack Kornfield</blockquote><br />So there is the difficulty itself, and then there is my response to the difficulty. I sat this afternoon in meditation, watching the thoughts surrounding this relationship swirl around and recognizing that they resemble other thoughts that often come up for me in meditation. I'm reading <span style="font-style: italic;">A Path With Heart</span>, and I tried to follow some of Kornfield's suggestions for exploring what he calls <span style="font-style: italic;">insistent visitors</span>. Kornfield explains, "When any experience of body, heart or mind keeps repeating in consciousness, it is a signal that this visitor is asking for a deeper and fuller attention... We must recognize that this is its way of asking us to give it more attention, to understand it more clearly. This process involves investigation, acceptance, understanding, and forgiveness."<br /><br />So that is the journey. I started to explore the physical sensations, feelings, etc. associated with these thoughts. I sat there, trying to experience all of this, trying to understand it further. And suddenly, I heard this little voice under all that practice. It said, <span style="font-style: italic;">Do you understand it yet? If you can just understand it, you can fix this... <span style="font-weight: bold;">and then you won't have these problems any more.</span>"<br /><br /></span>That kind of stopped me in my tracks. Wow. Is that where I think I'm going? Is that what I've been practicing for all this time? So I won't have any more difficulties? So people will love me? I asked myself these questions, and whatever had spoken inside me shrugged and said, <span style="font-style: italic;">Yep.</span><br /><br />OK then. Now we have a problem. Even going as far as enlightenment, assuming this state exists, is no guarantee of being loved by all beings. It is not a get-out-of-jail-free card. It does not exempt one from all future hardships. It certainly doesn't pay the rent. But more importantly, here is a deeper, more insidious version of the story "It's all my fault. If only I'd..., I could have prevented this."<br /><br />So I guess now my practice is to learn to be present on the path, not to arrive at what I perceive to be the destination, but to truly experience what the path is. To fully experience what surprises I might encounter along the way. To truly seek understanding, compassion, and freedom as they exist everywhere on the journey and not just at the destination. To go deeper down the rabbit hole and see what illusions and attachments are hiding in the next layer down.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Darn it,</span> says that little voice. <span style="font-style: italic;">I really thought we were getting somewhere. I was sure that universal admiration was just around the corner. That would have been way easier.</span><br /><br />All I can do is shrug and say, <span style="font-style: italic;">Yep.</span>dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-58423813050339441682010-05-25T18:08:00.000-07:002011-01-27T10:02:21.840-08:00Permanent ChangesI just finished presenting my Masters project at our final seminar. My project involved designing an innovative pre-college program for adult international students, based at an ESL school. I won't go into all the details, but I will say that it involves using yoga, meditation, breath awareness, and mindfulness to combat stress related to school and culture shock. Wow. When I thought of it, I thought someone should be doing this. Suddenly <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">I</span></span> am the one doing this. <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">I</span></span> am the perfect person to be doing this. My whole life has led me to it. Exciting, scary, amazing, surreal.<br /><br />I was not nervous during the presentation. I felt mindful. After, many of the comments said that I had both a calm and engaging presence. I was deliberate and authentic. I spoke from the heart.<br /><br />Recently, I heard my classroom presence described as "zen". Calm, soothing, zen. I've been hearing this a lot lately.<br /><br />The thing is, I'm pretty sure I didn't hear these words being used to describe me a few short years ago. I'm pretty sure then it was things like intense and emotional and passionate that came out. OK, I guess I still am those things but also I have this new dimension, this calm woman with the soothing voice and the poise and the precise speech. Where did she come from?<br /><br />What has changed? I meditate twice a day now. And so ~ she was in there all along.<br /><br />Deep changes. Now I stay more connected to what is, cling a little less to myself. I am afraid less. I am upset less by change than I used to be. Not all the time, I am not saying I am anywhere yet, I am not saying I have this down. I am just saying ~ people seem to describe me differently than they used to.<br /><br />As part of my research, I looked at Transformative Learning Theory, originally described by Jack Mezirow in 1978 (coincidentally the year of my birth) and which has been studied extensively ever since. This theory suggests that when we encounter a situation that does not fit with what we believe about the world, we are disoriented. This may inspire us to make a permanent and irreversible change in the way we see things, and this in turn will change our actions, our words, our relationships with others. This is not a surface change - it is a change to our beliefs, our values, our worldview at the deepest level.<br /><br />And isn't this what happens on the yoga mat, on the meditation cushion, when we take our practice out into the world? Disorientation... and then maybe, something shifting inside. Something moving over and permanently making room. Making the heart a little more expansive.<br /><br />I am told that for academic work, we must connect theory to practice and practice to theory. Practice. I once understood the practice of education and the practice of yoga to be different. Now I think I understand - it is all the same practice. My heart smiles.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-74395926936152025842010-05-03T16:02:00.000-07:002010-05-03T22:12:43.864-07:00At the core of practiceThe muscle you need isn't what you think it is.<br /><br />I first learned this lesson as a runner. When you're exhausted and you think you can't run any more, the muscles that carry you through are not in the legs. It's your upper body - arms and shoulders - that will keep you moving. When I started doing yoga, I thought that arm strength was needed for all sorts of poses, from plank to arm balances, when the key muscles are in fact in the core. Inversions? Yep, there are those abdominals again. Having trouble balancing? Try some <a href="http://yoga.about.com/od/breathing/a/ujjayi.htm">ujjayi pranayama</a>. Don't even get me started on <a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/practice/2417">mula bandha</a>.<br /><br />What about the balance between effort and relaxation? Sometimes the key to reaching further or doing something you have never done before is not to try harder but to let go. To stop pushing so hard, or maybe not to care so much. To find somewhere in the body or mind where you can surrender.<br /><br />How do we know if we are doing the right thing to get where we want to be? I'm not sure there's any single right answer to this question. Remain curious. See what arises. Don't assume that you know what is needed. Be willing to open in any direction. Be willing to be surprised.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-43492445025124454552010-04-04T11:07:00.000-07:002010-04-04T11:47:06.863-07:00Give yourself permission<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S7jYPDMRWYI/AAAAAAAAAJs/ySnJdbingls/s1600/DSC_0119.JPG"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 268px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S7jYPDMRWYI/AAAAAAAAAJs/ySnJdbingls/s400/DSC_0119.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5456348701625768322" border="0" /></a><blockquote>And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others.<br />~ Marianne Williamson<br /></blockquote><br />One of the hats I wear is that of ESL teacher. Last week in class, my students were struggling with a difficult listening exercise, and I found myself saying <span style="font-style: italic;">I give you permission to be wrong.</span> I wonder if that shifted anyone's world the way it shifted mine. <span style="font-style: italic;">I give you permission to be wrong</span>. How often do we explicitly receive or grant ourselves this permission? It's true that we are often <span style="font-weight: bold;">told</span> that it is OK to make mistakes as long as we learn from them, but in fact I think the overarching lesson of our society is that to be wrong is a terrible thing.<br /><br />Giving yourself permission to be wrong is the first step down a path to unknown discoveries. It is the first step to learning, exploring, discovering and growing as a person. By not only walking that path fearlessly but also explicitly giving others the permission to be wrong, we can give the world a great gift. I know that when I offered this permission to my students I <span style="font-style: italic;">really meant it</span> and so I would like to learn to receive this permission - from others, if it's granted, and from myself. I can balance on my head and bind in Side Angle, but I don't think I've ever really given myself permission to be wrong, to shine my light without reservations, to start down that path with the unknown destination. I am still new to this practice, still learning to take my first steps.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-255903433807524842010-03-31T15:18:00.001-07:002011-01-16T14:09:01.600-08:00The warrior within<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S7PVvdZdlFI/AAAAAAAAAJk/-h3cPpAx6z4/s1600/3775571065_3e80f9ded3_m.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 180px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S7PVvdZdlFI/AAAAAAAAAJk/-h3cPpAx6z4/s400/3775571065_3e80f9ded3_m.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5454938584997794898" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:180%;" ></span><blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:180%;" >Birdwings</span><br />Your grief for what you've lost lifts a mirror<br />up to where you're bravely working.<br />Expecting the worst, you look, and instead,<br />here's the joyful face you've been wanting to see.<br />Your hand opens and closes and opens and closes.<br />If it were always a fist or always stretched open,<br />you would be paralyzed.<br />Your deepest presence is in every small contracting and expanding,<br />the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated<br />as bird wings.<br /><br />~ Rumi</blockquote>I've been thinking about how it is sometimes helpful to find things that allow you to realize your power and grace, to connect with the light within. On the other hand, it can be detrimental if you identify your power and light too strongly with those things. I was thinking about this first with regards to running. Training for a marathon made me feel invincible: strong, courageous, capable, joyful - but when I became injured and couldn't run, I lost not only the activity itself but also my strength, courage and joy. In another example, a woman might feel like a goddess when she puts on an evening gown, but she might fail to notice that same goddess within herself when she's wearing old sweatpants or is naked. A yogi might feel power and courage when standing in a warrior pose but not when entering into a difficult work negotiation.<br /><br />I suppose this issue is really about impermanence again. Though these things have the power to open our eyes to the potential that lies within us, they fade in and out of our lives. They cannot be depended upon, and we cannot hold onto them no matter how we try. Knees can be injured, an evening gown can be torn, our bodies age and change shape, and we cannot always stand in warrior pose. The paradox is that by experiencing them fully and letting them go, we can somehow retain their power and grace, whereas by clinging to them we seem to lose everything.<br /><br />For myself, I am working on finding the warrior within, even when I'm not on the mat. Especially when I'm not on the mat. Awakening is really about what Rumi says so beautifully: learning to see <span style="font-style: italic;">your deepest presence in every small contracting and expanding</span>, in every inhale and exhale, in every moment. It is an amazing gift to come into yourself fully, but it is a gift we might not appreciate if we didn't fade in and out of this knowing, this being present. It is a gift we can find around every corner, each expansion and contraction of the breath in the body, of the mind, of the spirit, another opportunity to go deep.<br /><br />Photo credit: <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/lululemonathletica/3775571065/">Flickr Creative Commons<br /></a>dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-1844922267410236712010-03-29T15:47:00.000-07:002011-01-27T10:14:04.005-08:00Just breathe<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S7EwYzFNvHI/AAAAAAAAAJU/GrBNlAuFPi4/s1600/DSC_0086.JPG"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 200px; height: 134px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S7EwYzFNvHI/AAAAAAAAAJU/GrBNlAuFPi4/s200/DSC_0086.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5454193826309454962" border="0" /></a><br />The other day I found myself saying, <span style="font-style: italic;">If I could teach everyone in the world one thing, it would be how to find their own breath. </span>I think that of all the things I've learned in my years of doing yoga, of all the practices I've been given, <span style="font-weight: bold;">this </span>is the most powerful. This one simple thing: to remember to seek my breath and then learn to observe it, to deepen it or to hold it, to count it, to follow it or send it deliberately through the body... This is the key to all of the other practices for me. I truly believe that if all people learned to be aware of their own breath, the world would be a better place.<br /><br />You don't have to "buy into" the system of yoga to access this practice. You don't have to believe in <span style="font-style: italic;">chakras</span> or worship Ganesha. You don't have to be in a studio or own a yoga mat - and nobody has to know you are doing this practice if you don't want them to. Since we took our first breath, this simple action of moving air in and out of our bodies has been part of our connection to this earth: our greatest gift, our birthright. We all do it without being aware of it - but with awareness, the breath can be the key to calming the mind, coping with stress and anxiety, navigating grief and anger, or just getting to sleep at night.<br /><br />There are periods of my life when this is my only practice. Sometimes I simply follow my breath and let go of my thoughts. This works well on the bus, at my desk, before eating - any time I need a moment of quiet. Other times, I deepen my breathing or even sigh and feel the tension melt away. These practices and the <a href="http://yoga.about.com/od/breathing/a/threepartbreath.htm">three-part yogic breath</a> have helped me release anxiety and go to sleep at night, transforming me from an inveterate insomniac to a good sleeper. The <a href="http://www.yogaflavoredlife.com/wellness/try-breath-joy-energize-uplift-and-cleanse.html">breath of joy</a> energizes me on a sleepy afternoon better than coffee and without keeping me up into the night. Of course, learning to use the breath can also transform the experience of <span style="font-style: italic;">asana</span>, helping release muscles, concentrate the mind, consolidate balance, and more.<br /><br />In January, I did a daily <span style="font-style: italic;">pranayama</span>, or breath practice including some of the techniques mentioned above and others, including two commonly taught <span style="font-style: italic;">pranayama</span> techniques:<span style="text-decoration: underline;"><span style="font-style: italic;"></span></span><a href="http://www.holisticonline.com/Yoga/hol_yoga_breathing-ex-nadisodh.htm"><span style="font-style: italic;"> nadi sodhana</span></a>, or alternate nostril breathing, which really enhances my meditation, especially if I'm feeling anxious about something; and<a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/2452"> kapalabhati</a>, the skull-shining breath, which is another very invigorating practice. I've faded this more formal practice out, but want to return to it as part of my meditation practice since I found it very beneficial.<br /><br />If you're interested in deepening your relationship with your breath, I highly recommend the book <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Breath-Essence-Yoga-Sandra-Sabatini/dp/0007102984"><span style="font-style: italic;">breath: the essence of yoga</span></a> by Sandra Sabatini. Not only does she give lots of ideas for practice, but the book is basically poetry about the breath - a beautiful, reflective, resonant practice. I leave you with some of her words, because she says it much, much better than I can.<br /><br /><blockquote>don't push, don't pull (p. 63)<br /><br />allow the exhalation to travel out of the body<br />without leaving anything behind<br />only emptiness<br />a clean inside<br />don't be excited, don't be enthusiastic,<br />just be present, in here<br />and let the exhalation really move,<br />truly move out of the lungs<br /><br />the movements created by the exhalation<br />are so subtle<br />you cannot DO them<br />you can only accept them, receive them, welcome them...<br />the rest is not in your hands<br />you can create a space<br />and then what comes in is a gift</blockquote>dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-5112081270600631332010-03-21T11:35:00.000-07:002011-01-27T10:13:36.436-08:00What does it mean to "do yoga"?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S6Zq9HcbbiI/AAAAAAAAAJM/sVMWASAVMgE/s1600-h/DSC_0063.JPG"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 134px; height: 200px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S6Zq9HcbbiI/AAAAAAAAAJM/sVMWASAVMgE/s200/DSC_0063.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5451161997181414946" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S6Zq9HcbbiI/AAAAAAAAAJM/sVMWASAVMgE/s1600-h/DSC_0063.JPG"></a><blockquote><span style="font-family:georgia,bookman old style,palatino linotype,book antiqua,palatino,trebuchet ms,helvetica,garamond,sans-serif,arial,verdana,avante garde,century gothic,comic sans ms,times,times new roman,serif;">You cannot do yoga. Yoga is your natural state. What you can do are yoga exercises, which may reveal to you where you are resisting your natural state.<br />~ Sharon Gannon</span><br /><br /><br />In theory, practice and theory are the same. In practice they are not.<br />~Yogi Berra</blockquote><br /><br />Recently I was reading Lulu's post entitled "<a href="http://oceansandavocados.blogspot.com/2010/03/can-anyone-really-say-what-spirituality.html">Can Anyone Really Say What Spirituality Is?</a>" over at her Oceans and Avocados blog, and then I surfed over (as one tends to do these days) to <a href="http://ecoyogini.blogspot.com/2010/03/coil-moving-prayer.html">the Eco Yogini post</a> that inspired it. They got me to thinking about how my own view of yoga is similar and different to theirs, and also a little bit about both my practice and my research of late. Eco Yogini describes the <span style="font-style: italic;">point</span> of yoga as being spirituality and discusses the differences she feels between her spirituality and what is traditionally taught in yoga. I guess I am coming to see <span style="font-style: italic;">the point</span> as Sharon Gannon describes it in the quote at the beginning of this post. Yoga is a set of tools that we can use to reveal something about ourselves and how we relate to the world. That can be spiritual - it is for me - but it is also deeply personal, emotional, and it can be both a mental and physical journey too.<br /><br />Lulu poses the questions: <span style="font-style: italic;">Who decides what spirituality/ zen/ yoga are?</span> and <span style="font-style: italic;">What if the definitions don't work for you?</span> These are important questions. There is a vast range of beliefs and practices that have sprung up out of every spiritual tradition, including yoga, and I think this is indicative of the fact that every set of tools does not lead every person to the same destination. What makes intuitive sense to one person, another person may be unable to connect to. When one person follows the practices of her teacher, she may discover an entirely new insight and there we have another school of practice. I am amused to be quoting Yogi Berra here but he makes an excellent point here in a way only he could: theory and practice are not the same thing, and one never replaces the other. The Buddha said this in another way: <span style="font-style: italic;">Doubt everything. Find your own light.</span> He didn't want anyone to take his teachings as the Gospel, but rather for each to do his own practice and figure out what it is that he has inside.<br /><br />Many people think of yoga as the practice of <span style="font-style: italic;">asana</span> or postures, as a way to lose weight and stay in shape, or as a way to reduce stress. Patanjali said that <span style="font-style: italic;">Yoga is to still the patterns of consciousness [so that] pure awareness can abide in its very nature. </span>The full system of yoga has <a href="http://www.expressionsofspirit.com/yoga/eight-limbs.htm">eight limbs </a>and is a fully formed way of living including both ethics and lifestyle practices that go far beyond <span style="font-style: italic;">asana</span>. For my personal practice, this is very important. In the past two years, I have had periods of time where I've focused intensely on <span style="font-style: italic;">asana</span> and this has had tremendous physical, emotional, mental and spiritual benefits. However, I have also had periods where I've focused more intensely on <span style="font-style: italic;">pranayama</span> (controlling the breath) or meditation or various ethical principles. Each of these practices has also had intense physical, emotional, mental and spiritual outcomes for me. I very passionately would defend the idea that these are no less "doing yoga" than <span style="font-style: italic;">asana</span> practice is, and in fact simply doing <span style="font-style: italic;">asana</span> does not equal "doing yoga" for me.<br /><br />However, right now I'm doing research and designing curriculum to bring some of these yogic practices - <span style="font-style: italic;">asana, pranayama, </span>meditation - into educational programs to help international students manage stress related to studying in a foreign country. Through this work - and through reading about people's experiences in blogs such as those I've mentioned here - I am slowly becoming less of a purist. To me, the benefits of any one of these practices are so profound that to do it, even in isolation, can deeply transform a person's experience of a difficult situation. So who am I to look down on someone who doesn't follow the "whole system"? If a person won't do yoga because their religious beliefs prohibit it, who am I to withhold the secret of the three part breath from them? If someone goes to yoga class to work out and it makes them feel better, who am I to insist that they get spiritual? Meditation by any other name is still meditation. If I don't formally sit in meditation but I do take a moment on the bus to let my thoughts settle and follow my breath, who are you to judge my practice?<br /><br />I know that not everyone will agree with me. There was a time when I might not have agreed. But these days, I'm thinking of ways to bring the benefits of yoga to more people. And if that involves teaching "stress management" or "deep breathing" or "quiet time" then so be it. The world will be a better place if more people connect with their breath.<br /><br />Namaste.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-80049121510495948372010-03-20T13:34:00.000-07:002010-03-20T13:35:07.404-07:00Taking root<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/SlFsLnM94OI/AAAAAAAAAFs/3rLXImxRK08/s1600-h/DSC_0093.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 200px; height: 134px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/SlFsLnM94OI/AAAAAAAAAFs/3rLXImxRK08/s200/DSC_0093.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5355180378677960930" border="0" /></a><blockquote>Among the many definitions of the noun <span style="font-style: italic;">root</span><span> at dictionary.com</span>:<br /><ul><li>The usually underground portion of a plant that lacks buds, leaves, or nodes and serves as support, draws minerals and water from the surrounding soil, and sometimes stores food</li><li>A base or support</li><li>The condition of being settled and of belonging to a particular place or society (often used in the plural)</li><li>An essential part or element; the basic core</li><li>A primary source; an origin</li></ul></blockquote>In discussions of physical <span style="font-style: italic;">asana</span> practice, you will often hear the phrase "root to rise." The basic idea is to create a firm foundation for the pose (usually by grounding your feet) and send energy down into the earth through that foundation. By aligning your body correctly above this foundation, you allow a counter-flow of energy to move upwards and lift your body lightly, without effort. This allows you to practice <span style="font-style: italic;">asana</span> with what Patanjali described in the yoga sutras as "steadiness and ease."<br /><br />This sense of rooting to rise is important in balancing postures. In <a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/496"><span style="font-style: italic;">vrksasana</span></a>, or tree pose, it is easy to visualize this principle of rooting down and growing upwards through the image of the tree. One way to challenge the balance in this pose is to close the eyes, relying on instinct and the internal senses rather than the visual representation of the external environment in order to achieve balance. This requires a little bit of trust also. Of course, poses of all kinds can allow you to practice achieving a sense of lightness through the use of this principle.<br /><br />Because of the multiple definitions of <span style="font-style: italic;">root(s)</span>, the idea of rooting to rise lends itself as a metaphor for off-the-mat practices. For example, <span style="font-style: italic;">root</span> can refer to one's source or origin, so grounding yourself firmly in the past can allow you to move easily into the future. Learning to trust the instincts rather than visual feedback in poses such as <span style="font-style: italic;">vrksasana</span> can also have lessons for how we achieve balance in our lives off the mat.<br /><br />We use the phrase "returning to one's roots" to describe the process of going back to where you came from, both physically and ideologically. In many ways, I feel like I've gone back to my roots in the last year and a half. Returning to your roots does not necessarily mean regressing. Rather it is a process of integrating elements of your history and experience into who you are now. It can mean simply honoring parts of yourself that you've cast aside and re-evaluating what role they can play in the present moment. Maybe they no longer serve you, in which case they need only an acknowledgment, some gratitude for the role they played in your journey. Or maybe, looking back you will find that your past still holds you up. If we deny our pasts, we will always lack a solid foundation and when we are required to operate on intuition, we will lack the stability needed to stand firm. Only by building on the past can we truly find balance. It is your history that gives you the energy and anchor you need to grow above the canopy and wave your leaves in the sunlight.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-33407263817635637302010-03-07T11:48:00.000-08:002010-03-07T12:26:03.891-08:00Accepting limitations<span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" ></span><blockquote><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" >“Thr</span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S5QFudU7mDI/AAAAAAAAAJE/nu7936dOT9w/s1600-h/DSC_0055-1.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 134px; height: 338px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/S5QFudU7mDI/AAAAAAAAAJE/nu7936dOT9w/s200/DSC_0055-1.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5445984145102313522" border="0" /></a><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" >ough practice, I’ve come to see that the deepest source of my misery is not wanting things to be the way they are. Not wanting myself to be the way I am. Not wanting the world to be the way it is. Not wanting others to be the way they are. Whenever I’m suffering, I find this ‘war with reality’ to be at the heart of the problem.” -- Stephen Cope<br /><br /></span> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"> </p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" ></span><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" >“These days, my practice is teaching me to embrace imperfection: to have compassion for all the ways things haven’t turned out as I planned, in my body and in my life – for the ways things keep falling apart, and failing, and breaking down. It’s less about fixing things, and more about learning to be present for </span><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" >exactly what is.” --Anne Cushman</span><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" ></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"></p></blockquote><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" >Once again, I've been gone from this blog for a while. I've been practicing out in the world. I've been writing, but not about yoga. I've been going down different avenues, most of them very internal. Once again, I feel like it's time to come back here and see what there is to be said, explicitly, about practice.</span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" >Since the New Year, I've been practicing meditation and <a href="http://www.yogasite.com/pranayama.htm">pranayama</a> more intensely. I've been reading a lot about yoga philosophy and mindfulness in daily life, and my asana practice has dropped to the side. I've also started training for a marathon. As I've been increasing my weekly mileage, I've been exploring the meditative possibilities of running - how it feels to connect with the body and the breath, to use yogic practices like sending the breath into areas of discomfort and using mindfulness with mental habits such as fear of failure and the desire to give up.</span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" >Approximately three weeks ago, I started getting some minor nagging knee pain during runs. It was so negligible that I put it out of my mind and thought I just needed to stretch more and rest my legs. However, on February 22 I completed a 10-mile run and I ended it with severe pain in my knees which worsened over the course of the afternoon and evening. I soon realized that I had a serious overuse injury that was going to require an absolute halt to training until I could move pain free.</span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" >I was devastated. I had invested all my identity in my running and had come to rely on it for a sense of purpose and power in my life. At first, I wanted to give up on everything and crawl into bed and never come out. But then all the meditation practice I've been doing kicked in. Instead, I was determined to listen to my body until it spoke to me. I gathered as much information as I could about my condition, and I asked my knees what they needed. At first, they just wanted me to stop moving, but then as the pain subsided, I began to be able to identify specific areas of difficulty and how they were affected by the way I moved my body.</span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" >I held back. I watched all my thoughts and practiced letting them go, whatever came up: a sense of failure, a sense of desperation, a competitive urge. When my knees asked for it, I got on my yoga mat and discovered that my body knew which areas to work and stretch to give my knees the freedom of movement they required. Yesterday, I woke up and my body shouted, "RUN ME!" At first, I doubted it, but when I took to the road, I discovered that I could run 4 miles without pain. Not only that, but I was present in every step. I felt the impact of each movement; I felt the chain of energy of each impact with the road.<br /></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0pt 18px;"><span style=";font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:100%;" >As soon as we are formed, our body begins to be affected by being in the world. Like the tree trunk in the picture accompanying this post, we are worn by the business of living and by our contact with those living around us. We are not perfect, we are not invincible, we cannot do whatever we want. We cannot take on everything. We like to think we can, but our bodies let us know... and if we don't listen, they shout louder. If we fight it, if we ignore our bodies, we end up in pain. What I have learned these past two weeks is that the pain is not here to punish us. The pain is our teacher. It is here to remind us to listen and to find what it is that we need. Come back into your body. Ask it what it has to tell you today. And then listen. Whether you like what it has to say or not.<br /></span></p>dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-40660841905117788792009-10-03T15:39:00.000-07:002009-10-03T16:18:27.723-07:00Backsliding<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/SsfTrLojDeI/AAAAAAAAAI0/fthoqc71er4/s1600-h/DSC_0030.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 134px; height: 200px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/SsfTrLojDeI/AAAAAAAAAI0/fthoqc71er4/s200/DSC_0030.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5388508217982782946" border="0" /></a><blockquote><br />"Disease, dullness, doubt, carelessness, laziness, sensuality, false perception, failure to reach firm ground and slipping from the ground gained - these distractions of the mind-stuff are the obstacles. Accompaniments to the mental distractions include distress, despair, trembling of the body and disturbed breathing."<br /><br />-- Patanjali, <span style="font-style: italic;">Yoga Sutras I:30-31</span></blockquote>Even once you have begun to practice yoga and have experienced the amazing effects it can have on your life, there is still the tendency to backslide. Patanjali was well aware of this problem and acknowledged it in the <span style="font-style: italic;">Yoga Sutras</span>. In the past month or so, I have come up against most, if not all, of the mental distractions he described... and their negative effects. When the backsliding happens, I tend to fall off the wagon hard: eating badly, skipping asana practice and other physical exercise, indulging stress and anxiety, and lashing out. I guess if it happened to Patanjali, it can happen to anyone!<br /><br />To the degree to which practicing yoga regularly can transform your experience of daily life, <span style="font-style: italic;">not</span> doing yoga is like a slow poison, eating away at your happiness. Suddenly you feel dull and lifeless: mentally, emotionally and physically. Luckily, there are signs which wake us up and remind us to practice: pain, despair, distress in the body and breathing. Even more luckily, the ancient yogis determined a number of techniques that can help us get back on track. Through meditation, pranayama, and asana practice, we can return our mind to a calm state. Patanjali suggests that wee can also "cultivate attitudes of friendliness toward the happy, compassion toward the unhappy, delight toward the virtuous and disregard toward the wicked."<br /><br /><a href="http://patriciawalden.wordpress.com/2009/08/25/taking-the-next-step/">Patricia Walden and Jarvis Chen</a> suggest that one can use "<em>tapas</em> (discipline), <em>svadhyaya</em> (self-study), and <em>Isvara-pranidhana</em> (surrender) to overcome the obstacles." They also quote the <span style="font-style: italic;">Bhagavad Gita<span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;">,</span></span></span> which says that "No effort on the path is ever lost." This is one of the most comforting aspects of yoga for me. You can fall off the wagon a few times - everyone does - but you always have a choice to practice in the present moment, and it is your choice right now that matters. Sometimes the real world is not that forgiving. You can make mistakes in the real world that can alienate others or close doors forever. But the practice of yoga is forgiving because what counts is your willingness to continue to practice <span style="font-weight: bold;">right now</span>.<br /><br />Sometimes when you can't see the road clearly it is easy to lose your way, or to take a turn too quickly and end up in a ditch. But maybe, <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">just maybe</span></span>, the next time you see the "blind drive" sign, you might remember and slow down a little, or stop the car and get out and walk. You can't undo the last slide, but you can hope that your previous effort was not lost. It will be easier to get back on track again, and to avoid pitfalls in the future, because you practiced.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-26607438343114147852009-09-18T12:26:00.000-07:002009-09-18T12:29:22.038-07:00Releasing your Expectations<span style=";font-family:verdana,helvetica,arial;font-size:85%;" > <span style="font-size:78%;"></span></span><blockquote><span style=";font-family:verdana,helvetica,arial;font-size:100%;" >September 18, 2009<br /><b>Finding Joy in Life's Surprises</b><br /><i>Releasing Your Expectations</i> </span><p> <span style=";font-family:verdana,helvetica,arial;font-size:100%;" > As we endeavor to find personal fulfillment and realize our individual ideals, we naturally form emotional attachments to those outcomes we hope will come to pass. These expectations can serve as a source of stability, allowing us to draft plans based on our visions of the future, but they can also limit our potential for happiness by blinding us to equally satisfying yet unexpected outcomes. Instead of taking pleasure in the surprising circumstances unfolding around us, we mourn for the anticipation left unfulfilled. When we think of letting go of our expectations, we may find ourselves at the mercy of a small inner voice that admonishes us to strive for specific goals, even if they continually elude us. However, the opposite of expectation is not pessimism. We can retain our optimism and free ourselves from the need to focus on specific probabilities by opening our hearts and minds to a wide variety of possible outcomes.<br /><br />When we expect a situation, event, or confrontation to unfold in a certain way, it becomes more difficult to enjoy the surprises that have the potential to become profound blessings. Likewise, we may feel that we failed to meet our inner objectives because we were unable to bring about the desired results through our choices and actions. Consider, though, that we are all at the mercy of the universal flow, and our best intentions are often thwarted by fate. As you grow increasingly open to unforeseen outcomes, you will be more apt to look for and recognize the positive elements of your new circumstances. This receptivity to the unexpected can serve you well when you are called upon to compromise with others, your life plans seem to go awry, or the world moves forward in an unanticipated manner by granting you the flexibility to see the positive aspects of almost any outcome.<br /><br />The further you distance yourself from your expectations, the more exhilarating your life will become. Though a situation in which you find yourself may not correspond to your initial wants, needs, or goals, ask yourself how you can make the most of it and then do your best to adapt. Your life’s journey will likely take many unpredicted and astonishing twists because you are willing to release your expectations.</span></p></blockquote><p><span style=";font-family:verdana,helvetica,arial;font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></span></p><p>From <a href="http://www.dailyom.com/articles/2009/20282.html">http://www.dailyom.com/articles/2009/20282.html</a>.<br /></p>dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-10752264655598583642009-09-11T18:05:00.000-07:002009-09-16T20:57:05.280-07:00Fear of falling<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/Sqrz442zHII/AAAAAAAAAIs/HEMKUsGuAlA/s1600-h/424185912_b2f6ebd446.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 150px; height: 200px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/Sqrz442zHII/AAAAAAAAAIs/HEMKUsGuAlA/s200/424185912_b2f6ebd446.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5380380863507930242" border="0" /></a><blockquote>"Death is not the biggest fear we have; our biggest fear is taking the risk to be alive -- the risk to be alive and express what we really are."<br />-- Don Miguel Ruiz<br /><br />"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do."<br />-- Eleanor Roosevelt</blockquote><br /><br /><a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/finder/browse_categories/arm_balances">Arm balances</a> and <a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/finder/browse_categories/inversions">inversions</a> are classic ways to work with the emotion of fear in hatha yoga. I've recently been re-visiting both after years of avoidance. These poses raise in me, as for many people, a sense of impossible challenge - both in terms of strength and skill. I was content with my sun salutations, but recently I've been encouraging myself to confront my fears and work on these postures. I've learned a lot in particular from <a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/468">bakasana (crane pose)</a> and <a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/481">salamba sirsasana (headstand)</a> in recent weeks. Both poses evoke fear in me - but that has come about in different ways for each pose - and in both poses I have recently begun to overcome my fear of falling.<br /><br />I was introduced to bakasana several years ago by a teacher I liked and trusted. I had been pursuing a lot of gentle and restorative yoga during that period, which was helping me cope with a stressful job change. As I returned to more faster, flow-based asana, I discovered that I had built a lot of strength and flexibility working in the gentler traditions. When this teacher demonstrated bakasana, I believed her assertion that I could accomplish this pose. Like a child who has not yet learned that the world holds dangers, I went into the pose innocently and fearlessly. I soon lifted into the beginner variation of this pose, feet lifted but arms not yet straight, and I loved how it felt to balance there.<br /><br />So where did my fear of this pose come from? In researching for this post, I found this about arm balances on <a href="http://www.markstephensyoga.com/html/practice/visual/web-galleries/4-armbal/arm-balance.html">Mark Stephens' web page</a>: "They involve fear and ego while bringing about self-confidence and humility." I was about to experience the ego and humility part of things. Eager to show off this new arm balance one day, I attempted it at home without warming up, went into it too quickly, held it briefly, and then crashed <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">hard</span></span> onto the bridge of my nose. It hurt! I was wearing glasses at the time, which bent quite badly but luckily could be repaired. My ego and my innocent fearlessness, however, took more permanent damage and for the next two years or more I was unable to lift even one foot off the ground in this pose.<br /><br />Headstand is different. Inversions terrify me (with the exception of shoulder stand, which I think I went into early enough in my practice that it didn't occur to me to be scared). <span style="font-style: italic;">Of <span style="font-weight: bold;">course </span>I can't do <span style="font-weight: bold;">that</span>,</span> I tell myself. <span style="font-style: italic;">I'll fall and/or smash my head on the ground!</span> Whenever headstand has come up in class, I've done the preparatory exercises, which were scary enough. Working with my fear in the preparatory poses was hard; it never occurred to me to actually try to kick up into the full pose.<br /><br />Several weeks ago, I was practicing at home and I just kicked up into headstand at the wall. I have no idea what made me do it. There's no question that I had the ability to do this all along. I could tell that my alignment was good in the pose; my weight was in my arms, and I was comfortable there. All the fear just melted away, and since I've been able to continue working in the pose. It has done wonders for my self-confidence!<br /><br />Bakasana is harder. I wonder if this is because my body has a painful memory to go along with the fear. I am just beginning to trust the strength of my arms again, my ability to know how the weight of my body should be distributed. It takes me a long time to find the courage, but I'm finally able to lift my feet off the ground again. I hope that one day I'll be able to straighten the arms.<br /><br />I'm starting to recognize how often these two types of fear come up in other aspects of my life. Sometimes we're afraid that we'll fall (or fail) because of a previous experience; sometimes we're just afraid because of what lurks in our imagination. It's important to acknowledge that fear is a legitimate response to many things. After all, falling heavily on your head or neck is dangerous. Having your heart broken is devastating. Losing your job can put you in dire financial straits. The list goes on and on. But fear is so often paralyzing, and it can prevent us from experiencing our true potential, from continuing to learn and grow. We have to learn to assess our abilities and strength; to know when to go further; to have faith in our own resources and in those who support and encourage us; and to know what is and is not a serious consequence. Whether it's an inversion or love, the results of that trust can be exhilarating.<br /><br />Let yourself take flight.<br /><br />Namaste.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5333756133945851825.post-87548213211944871372009-09-10T19:03:00.000-07:002009-09-16T20:50:13.743-07:00Love is powerful stuff<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/SqmwBeQwKBI/AAAAAAAAAIk/xpstDx5Kv9M/s1600-h/heartchakra-300x300.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 200px; height: 200px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_7DgduWiWOcE/SqmwBeQwKBI/AAAAAAAAAIk/xpstDx5Kv9M/s200/heartchakra-300x300.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5380024769220454418" border="0" /></a><blockquote><span style="font-size:100%;">"If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion."<br />-- The <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Dalai</span> Lama<br /><br />"I vow to offer joy to one person in the morning and to help relieve the grief of one person in the afternoon."<br />-- <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Thich</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Nhat</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Hanh</span><br /></span></blockquote>This morning, I was early for an appointment and stopped at a cafe. I was reading about compassion in <span style="font-style: italic;">The Joy of Living.</span> As I walked to my appointment, I was doing a casual version of a <a href="http://www.buddhanet.net/metta_in.htm">loving-kindness meditation</a>. Last night in yoga class, we had worked on <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">backbends</span>, all heart opening postures. In <a href="http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/482"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">savasana</span></a>, I had experienced a momentary breakthrough to a very calm place of connection with everything. So as I walked, I was remembering this moment and thinking about what I had been reading. I began to practice focusing on my heart while thinking about someone I love, and then visualized that love and openness radiating out to all the world around me.<br /><br />I paused to wait for traffic at a crosswalk. I imagine I had a smile on my face as I waited there. An elderly man walking by stopped and stared at me and then said, in an odd tone of voice, "Thank you."<br /><br />I looked at him. He must have realized it was somewhat strange because he explained, "I was having a depressing morning, and then I saw you standing there, and I don't know why but you changed my perspective somehow. Thank you."<br /><br />You can be skeptical about his intentions if you want, but that gave me a chill - the sense that this man had actually <span style="font-style: italic;">received</span> the love I had been sending. Love is powerful stuff, and it's contagious. And I have to warn you, the primary symptom is happiness. Look out - you might catch it!<br /><br />Who am I kidding?! We all want happiness. Well, here's some loving kindness. Pass it on.dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09477118577974071974noreply@blogger.com1